Trying to get through

The holidays. I’ve always enjoyed the holidays. I’ve never gone over the top with any of it but it has always been enjoyable. Now that our son us died, I am not enjoying myself one bit. I am not going out of my way to go see Christmas lights, I’m really avoiding the stores and…

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“How are you doing?”

Please don’t take offense to this because I realize that this is a very simple question that EVERYONE asks but I have come to HATE this question. I started hating it while our son was in the hospital. At that time, I didn’t know which end was up and I was getting by on sheer…

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Childhood Cancer is NOT rare

I’ve heard it said so many times that childhood cancer is rare and I don’t think that is true. It’s definitely not rare to me now that my son died of cancer. I knew of one other child that died of cancer and another one who survived it before I was involved with St. Baldrick’s.…

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If you need anything, just give me a call

I realize people mean well when they say this and I truly believe most people would help if you called them In reality, I’m not going to call you and ask for help. There are days I can barely get through the basic life tasks and thinking of who offered to help at some point…

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People move on after a month

10/3/19 When our son died, we were inundated with support and I will always be beyond thankful. We had people cooking, cleaning, doing laundry, grocery shopping and anything we could imagine. We didn’t want to do anything and I truly don’t know how we could have. We were in so much shock and denial and…

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The worst 6 days of my life Pt. 3

This is the part of the story when things started changing very rapidly. It was Friday and it was my night to stay at the hospital. My mom was there with me and everyone else had left so we started to get settled in the waiting room. There was just no way to sleep in…

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The worst 6 days of my life Pt. 2

At this point, we figured that we were going to be in for the long haul because at this point, he had 6 strokes and had cancer as well as still trying to figure out where the clots were coming from. Since the discussion of cancer treatments was on the table, I was starting to…

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