“How are you doing?”

Please don’t take offense to this because I realize that this is a very simple question that EVERYONE asks but I have come to HATE this question. I started hating it while our son was in the hospital. At that time, I didn’t know which end was up and I was getting by on sheer…

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Childhood Cancer is NOT rare

I’ve heard it said so many times that childhood cancer is rare and I don’t think that is true. It’s definitely not rare to me now that my son died of cancer. I knew of one other child that died of cancer and another one who survived it before I was involved with St. Baldrick’s.…

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If you need anything, just give me a call

I realize people mean well when they say this and I truly believe most people would help if you called them In reality, I’m not going to call you and ask for help. There are days I can barely get through the basic life tasks and thinking of who offered to help at some point…

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Parenting while grieving

11/1/2019 Having my child die was something that never crossed my mind as a real possibility. When my first born was brand new, you stare into their eyes and express your undying love for them and you think, “I don’t know what I would do with myself if you died” but if you are like…

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People move on after a month

10/3/19 When our son died, we were inundated with support and I will always be beyond thankful. We had people cooking, cleaning, doing laundry, grocery shopping and anything we could imagine. We didn’t want to do anything and I truly don’t know how we could have. We were in so much shock and denial and…

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My experience with grief *written 2 months after my loss

I was in total shock and denial for at least the first 6 weeks. I thought for sure that I would see him come down the hallway and say good morning mom. I shook my head in disbelief so much I’m surprised my head didn’t swivel off of my neck. I did not leave the…

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The worst 6 days of my life Pt. 3

This is the part of the story when things started changing very rapidly. It was Friday and it was my night to stay at the hospital. My mom was there with me and everyone else had left so we started to get settled in the waiting room. There was just no way to sleep in…

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The worst 6 days of my life Pt. 2

At this point, we figured that we were going to be in for the long haul because at this point, he had 6 strokes and had cancer as well as still trying to figure out where the clots were coming from. Since the discussion of cancer treatments was on the table, I was starting to…

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