One of the hardest yet best things I’ve learned through my journey with child loss is that when you don’t know how to do something, ask for help. There is help available for just about anything you can imagine. Seriously. It doesn’t make you weak. I’ll say that again for the people in the back:…
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Loose Boards
Early on, in my grief journey, someone told me about “Loose Boards.” When you are in the store, and a song comes on that you weren’t expecting, that’s a loose board. When you are at a place that you had gone with your loved one and the memory comes flying back, that is a loose…
Read MoreI’ve Had The Rug Pulled Out From Underneath Me
I was cruising along, having good days and bad, and then……. Coronavirus. I found some things that were helping me get through my days and then forced isolation changed everything. I could no longer do the things that were helping me. I was forced to deal with the feelings that I hadn’t completely delved into.…
Read MoreAnger
I made a big mistake. I did not tend to my anger …and it has come back to bite me. Hard. I was so terrified of having Postpartum Depression that I chose not to camp out on anger. I was thinking (in my jumbled up grief, postpartum brain) that if I wasn’t angry, maybe I…
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Avoiding Pain
While I am so thankful for my community and their willingness to always step in while I’m struggling, the pain of losing a child can not be fixed. I have been extremely busy since Jackson died (some by my choice and some not.) Having a very active 4 year old has forced me to get…
Read MoreSocial Isolation While Grieving
I know I’m not the only one experiencing anxiety related to current affairs in the world, but I would imagine that my reasons are a little different than the average persons. I am a self-proclaimed control freak. It’s probably why I don’t like to drink or do drugs because I am not in control. Losing…
Read MorePhotos From St.Baldricks 2/22/20
Check out the gallery from Ladybug Photography! https://ladybugphotographyllc.pixieset.com/teamjacksonstbaldricks/
Read MorePictures From The Leader
I want to think the Jefferson County Leader for a great article! Here are the pictures taken from for the piece. Laura Marlow did an amazing job. Check it out! https://www.myleaderpaper.com/gallery/ted-howell-submitted-photos-family-of-osteosarcoma-victim-honors-son/collection_b4fb1ab8-63c8-11ea-ae7a-e38bab3076a4.html?utm_medium=social&utm_source=facebook&utm_campaign=user-share#34
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Carrie Schmitt 