Loose Boards

Early on, in my grief journey, someone told me about “Loose Boards.” When you are in the store, and a song comes on that you weren’t expecting, that’s a loose board. When you are at a place that you had gone with your loved one and the memory comes flying back, that is a loose…

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I’ve Had The Rug Pulled Out From Underneath Me

I was cruising along, having good days and bad, and then……. Coronavirus. I found some things that were helping me get through my days and then forced isolation changed everything. I could no longer do the things that were helping me. I was forced to deal with the feelings that I hadn’t completely delved into.…

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Anger

I made a big mistake. I did not tend to my anger …and it has come back to bite me. Hard. I was so terrified of having Postpartum Depression that I chose not to camp out on anger. I was thinking (in my jumbled up grief, postpartum brain) that if I wasn’t angry, maybe I…

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Avoiding Pain

While I am so thankful for my community and their willingness to always step in while I’m struggling, the pain of losing a child can not be fixed. I have been extremely busy since Jackson died (some by my choice and some not.) Having a very active 4 year old has forced me to get…

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Social Isolation While Grieving

I know I’m not the only one experiencing anxiety related to current affairs in the world, but I would imagine that my reasons are a little different than the average persons. I am a self-proclaimed control freak. It’s probably why I don’t like to drink or do drugs because I am not in control. Losing…

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Pictures From The Leader

I want to think the Jefferson County Leader for a great article! Here are the pictures taken from for the piece. Laura Marlow did an amazing job. Check it out! https://www.myleaderpaper.com/gallery/ted-howell-submitted-photos-family-of-osteosarcoma-victim-honors-son/collection_b4fb1ab8-63c8-11ea-ae7a-e38bab3076a4.html?utm_medium=social&utm_source=facebook&utm_campaign=user-share#34

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