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Learning to Grieve While Parenting


My name is Carrie Schmitt and I am a proud mother, step-mother and former surrogate. I am also a passionate advocate. My most recent title has become angel mother. I am learning how to PWG, parent while grieving and writing has become part of my grief therapy. I feel strongly about sharing my journey in hopes to help myself as well as help others.



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Loose Boards

Early on, in my grief journey, someone told me about “Loose Boards.” When you are in the store, and a song comes on that you weren’t expecting, that’s a loose board. When you are at a place that you had gone with your loved one and the memory comes flying back, that is a loose […]

I’ve Had The Rug Pulled Out From Underneath Me

I was cruising along, having good days and bad, and then……. Coronavirus. I found some things that were helping me get through my days and then forced isolation changed everything. I could no longer do the things that were helping me. I was forced to deal with the feelings that I hadn’t completely delved into. […]

Anger

I made a big mistake. I did not tend to my anger …and it has come back to bite me. Hard. I was so terrified of having Postpartum Depression that I chose not to camp out on anger. I was thinking (in my jumbled up grief, postpartum brain) that if I wasn’t angry, maybe I […]

Avoiding Pain

While I am so thankful for my community and their willingness to always step in while I’m struggling, the pain of losing a child can not be fixed. I have been extremely busy since Jackson died (some by my choice and some not.) Having a very active 4 year old has forced me to get […]

Social Isolation While Grieving

I know I’m not the only one experiencing anxiety related to current affairs in the world, but I would imagine that my reasons are a little different than the average persons. I am a self-proclaimed control freak. It’s probably why I don’t like to drink or do drugs because I am not in control. Losing […]